‘Reinventing Rescuing’

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Berlin art-parasites

Photo by: Heather Mclean

Dear Future Daughter

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Berlin art-parasites

Photo by: Kate Powell

appreciate the little things

One thing I love the most about random days is that they make you feel nostalgic. They make you realize how you have been ungrateful for the things you had, you have, and will get a hold of in the future. The "contentment" that you have been craving for? That'll never come. As long as there's something you're not afraid to lose, and desperate to have, that thing you call "contentment" is as good as gone.

You might as well hit your face with a brick if you think that a lavish, materialistic life is all you need. It's nice to have high ambitions and goals that you're heading for & working hard for, but is that really all there is? Imagine yourself in a high rise condominium hotel, with a kick ass job that you love that offers good money and pays the bills. But there's nobody else with you. Imagine.

Now I want you to forget that image & think of that one thing you really want, that money cannot buy. Think of that one person (or more if you prefer) that you want to share it with. To thank them for everything they've done to you that made you the person that you are today, and the individual that you strive to be. Imagine their faces, imagine the warmth it gives you. Isn't that nicer?

Getting to spend my Grandpa's 80th birthday today made me thought of this. I don't need to spoil myself with material things. Material things will never fill the gap that is meant for family, and the relationships that go with it. An Iphone does not have the ability to make you feel a mother's hug whenever you miss her. A laptop will never cry nor laugh with you whenever you share something happening in your life.

These are the things that are meant to stay in our minds whenever we are too busy in reaching our aspirations. No matter how crazy or how pretentious it may seem, it's nice to keep your head above the clouds, but your feet placed firmly on the ground. Day by day these little things are what keep us home. They make us stay true to ourselves & who we really are. Never forget to appreciate them.

Manila International Auto Show // April 12

The last time I went to a car show was two months ago. You could just imagine how anxious I was to attend this much awaited event for car lovers (like me). The crowded exhibits, heavy road traffic, and breathing difficulties caused by the harsh heat had no power stopping me from rushing my ass off just to buy a ticket and enjoy this annual event.

I took lots of pictures, but I'm gonna show you my favorites. I am going to keep my descriptions discrete, because this is going to be a long blog post. Brace yourselves.

My best choice to start this off was the classic cars. Who doesn't love classics?

One of my favorite exhibits from the show was this one whole tent dedicated to miniature cars! Complete with detailed features made and accomplished to perfection. 

I mean, how often do you see a miniature Range Rover and Hummer in real everyday life?

One that really caught my attention was this Bugatti Veyron. And how it's basically made.

I also fell in love with this Fast & Furious exhibit! The cars that were used in the whole movie franchise were also made into miniature cars. I'd love to get my hands on them someday.

As a natural lover of coupe models like Toyota 86 and Hyundai Genesis, I give you these:

Ford Mustang GT. In all it's glory.

I obviously wouldn't miss a photo op:

Now I saved the best for last. Super cars at its finest.

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MIAS 2015

These walls weren't meant to keep people out

Did you ever experience something that made you feel less worthy? Something that made you cry at 3 in the morning questioning yourself why are you the way that you are? Or even blaming that one thing you did 3 years ago on a Monday afternoon and wishing that if you could just turn back time you would do the exact opposite? You ever meet that person, that time bomb, that completely and tremendously turned your world upside down? I did.

The last time I let my guard down for something was out of love, out of the rational thing, out of my league. He came to me so fast that he crashed into me like waves. He was uncontrollable, yet pleasing to the eyes. His words were sweet, like any other teenage girl would describe them. His actions made me melt, and I gave in so quickly I had no other choice but to go with it. I was in love, or at least I thought I was.

3 years later I look at that moment as a scar. Like something that I would never do, ever again. It was intensely traumatic that it changed the way I see the world. I built up these walls not to keep people out, but to keep me safe. Everything was at peace, and the thought of bringing those walls down, never came into my mind, not even once. I was in control of everything. I was above everything, & I liked the view from the top.

Little did I know that these walls that were supposed to keep me safe, isolated me from the wonders that I have yet to experience. I thought I had it all. Gambling with affection and the lies that came with it. The sense of dominance I had when I was leading people on. Those nights of endless numbness, that I thought was strength. I was insane to think that that was the way I was supposed to see the world. Wrong was an understatement.

This guy came, no, this knight came, destroying my walls down. It was petrifying, but it somehow soothed the crying girl inside me. The first time the light touched the ground I was terrified. "Fuck, you ruined everything." But as soon as the light scattered on those shattered pieces, I realized how beautiful it was. He made me realize my self-worth. I fell in love, not with him, but with the way I see the world whenever he's around. 

He was another time bomb. But this time, I was willing to take the risk of him exploding in my arms. And when you find that certain person, whether it be a knight or a king, never let him go. 

RDM

12:04 AM

4 24 15

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April 18-19, 2015

Goldland Millenia Suites

Ortigas Center

Pasig, Metro Manila

Update: Euphony

1. English Girls

2. Miles Away

3. (Un)Lost

4. Am I Pretty?

5. Same Suit, Different Tie

Let's run away and never look back

You ever wonder why teenagers love doing stupid things? Why they always get caught doing something "bad" and not show any remorse for it? Let me tell you why.

Artists never stopped doing what they love. They didn't die for nothing. They didn't want to be part of something so ordinary. No, fuck that. They wanted to do things that lived up to their passion, to their dreams and goals. Hell, they wanted to live.

So why stop now? Why go with the crowd? Why waste your life waking up at 7 in the morning, knowing that every single day is going to make you feel like complete shit. This is the norm everybody thinks is right for them. "Right" is the thing society invented in order for those teenagers to stop painting too much colors in their world, and start acting like them. And for what? You call having a crappy job that pays the bills living? You call kissing other people's ass just to get money out of it 'living your life'? Fuck your philosophy.

I'm gonna travel, & not only travel by places but by heart and mind and soul. I want to discover myself, see what the world has to offer, and what I can offer back. I want to rotate the same way this planet does, 24 hours a day. I don't want to settle and go to bed in my room smelling like cigarettes and alcohol full of regrets. Shit, I don't even want to go to sleep, or I might miss those things so euphoric it'll change my perception in life.

The way the 10 year old me saw the world full of surprises and mysteries, I want to feel that again. I don't want to let society morph myself into something acceptable for them. Fuck that. The way my mom told me that I can change the world, I want to bring that back, & prove to anyone who laughed at me wrong.

I don't want labels, or numbers, or groups to define me. I am my own person, my own artist. My world, my colors. What I say about myself is how I want to be perceived and nobody has the right to tell me otherwise.

RDM
12:01 AM
4 23 15

Something everyone should read over and over again

I want you to imagine a ten year old version of yourself sitting opposite from you right this minute. Got it? Ok, now, I want you to tell this little girl or boy that they mean absolutely nothing. Tell them they're an embarrassment, that they're worthless, that they're useless. Are you doing it? Can you say it? No. You can't do it right? Now, realize that this is essentially what you do to yourself every single day. What do you want to REALLY say to this kid? That they're worth it, right? That they're incredible and they should never let anyone tell you otherwise. Now, say this new stuff to yourself. Replace the bad with the good. Repeat it. Believe it. Understand it.

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Essay: Poems Porn

Photo: Yelena Bryksenkova

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Project Pie

April 12, 2015

Commerce Avenue

Muntinlupa City